Before I saw the tapestry of Gods

Before I fell on my knees

Before I laughingly prayed

Before I knew much at all

I didnt know who I was

But one day a sudden realization

It dawned upon me

My heart

A wildfire

This one came about before I knew that I was interested in poetry at all. It was a day when I was in my teens, back when I used to hang out with my friends a lot and we were smoking weed and one day we actually tripped on LSD. That trip caused me to feel a powerful heart opening and a feeling of self confidence and trust in my own beauty even has been with me since that day.

I used to have problems with my self esteem but these days I am happy to say that I am mostly over my self doubts and that has to do with a process that I started over 10 years ago with awareness of my pain perhaps and now its in the past and that is a happy feeling.